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My sONG tO MY lOVED oNE

September 29, 2005

I wanna make you smile whenever you’re sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I’ll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I’ll miss you
I’ll kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

I’ll need you
I’ll feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you’ve had too much to drink
I could be the girl who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you.

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More than Anyone

September 26, 2005

You need a friend
I’ll be around
Don’t let this end
before I see you again
What can I say to convince you to change your mind?..Don’t leave

chorus:
I’m gonna love you more than anyone
I’m gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body be free, I’ll be free for you anytime
I’m gonna love you more than anyone

Look in my eyes
What do you see
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me your need and I will try
I will try

chorus

Free for you whenever you need
We’ll be free together daddy,
free together daddy

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My Angel..

September 25, 2005


Dearest Yumi,
 Hi our little angel..You’re 6 months now..another 6 months to go and you’ll be turning 1.. please don’t grow up too fast..We love you and we’ll do everything we can to give you the brightest future that you deserve. We’ll bring you up the very best way we know how..don’t worry, mommy and daddy will always be here for you, loving you and guiding you… You are the greatest gift that God has ever given daddy and me..We love you..

Love,
Mommy and Daddy

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Nothing to do…

September 24, 2005

i have seven minutes to spare until my lunch is through..i’ve just updated another blog in another website..hmmm, nothing to do and nothing to say..he just e mailed me this :

“mommy mtutulog n ako ha…di n kita mahihintay eh antok n kc ako eh…sana pag dting mo email mo ako ha.pls email k agad pag dting mo ok.mis u ingat k ok..wag mong kalimutan n mag email agad pag dting mo ok.mahal n mahal kta ok di n kita iiwan ok.mag hahanap n ako ng work para maka alis n ako rito.mag rerent n lang ako ng room o kya appartment pag may n ipon para maka pag tipid n tyo di ba?mahal n mahal kita ok at lagi mong tandaan n hindi kita iiwanan khit ano pang mangyari ok.luv u tsuptusptsuptsuptsuptsuptsuptsuptusptsuptsup
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last night before he went to sleep and i guess that really made my day… i am in constant war mode with my dad because of his lack of manners when i’m on the phone with J. i was mad as hell yesterday when i left the house to report for work but when i finally got here, i got to read the sweetest email yet and now im kinda in a good mood.. i miss J and i miss spending time with him may it be just making “Tambay” in the mall and smoking our lungs out or in our “tambayan” where we get to taste each other and satisfy our earthly cravings..heheh..more often than not, we end up going to our “tambayan” and when we’re there, it actually feels like home..weird of all the wierds but its true..it’s like our shelter away from this cruel world. it’s the place where i feel that no other people exists but him and me…it’s a place where i can call him MINE! ALL MINE. but all the time it ends up too soon.before we even realize it, its the start of another day…so even if we don’t want to, we’d have to get back to the real world, and wait for another couple of days before we can go back..someday, we will have a home…some place that we could call our own..away from the harsh realities that we both we’re forced to face…away from all the hustle and bustle of the people around us..someday we’ll have that home. our own paradise.:

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Fly

September 23, 2005

atlast i finally got to watch Peter Pan yesterday and it was fun.we were just surfing the channels and there it is!!! i saw wndy, peter, and all the “bugoy” boys or whatever you call them. it was areally nice movie, worth all the wait..and what’s good about it is that i got to watch peter pan and i watched it with J.really nice feeling having him by my side again..it’s as if i don’t want the night to end…but all too soon it ended..really glad i got to watch peter pan and as a bonus i got to watch it with the most important man in my life..

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The Theme Song

September 19, 2005


Let me introduce you to our ultimate theme song.
sound like a song from the distant past but this is
a song that made us click. it was the first topic of our
conversation and actually the meaning of the song really
applies well with our relationship..just sharing..

I’m not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn’t do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I’m sorry that I hurt you
It’s something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I’ve found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I’m not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I’ve found a reason to show
A side of me you didn’t know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

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Wicker Park



Come up to meet you, tell you I’m sorry
You don’t know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh let’s go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I’m going back to the start

* i just watched “Wicker Park” last night and i just had the last song syndrome. this is a really nice song. brings back memories of the year that has passed. that was the song playing in his player (which was a ps2 by the way, not really a cd player) when i first went to visit his room. and each time i hear that song my mind just brings me back to those times. i miss hanging out with J in his room.. we do nothing else there other than drink, smoke our lungs out and sleep..(ooppsss, there’s also this other thing that we do that i don’t think i need not mention here anymore.) i miss hanging out in that room. i miss the smell of the house, particularly the smell of his room. it’s a combination of the smell of newly washed clothes and yosi. really miss that… i miss his bed. i miss the feel of lying there. and just being that close to him..being in his personal space. i wish someday i’ll have the chance to go back there. i really miss it. or plainly i just miss J!!!!

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Wawa Dam

September 18, 2005

I’ll take note of this.. One of the places I definitely want to visit before I die..


Been browsing the internet for this place and guess i finally found a picture of it. I think I consider this as one of the most beautiful places i have yet to discover..hehehe..just wanna share it to the world!

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Peter Pan

 

last night was the premiere of Peter pan in HBO and i can’t believe?that i missed it again..Last year when the movie was released theaters i didn’t get to watch it..It took a whole damn year to be shown in tv and?now that it’s finally reached the tubes, i missed it!!!! Damn! So maybe it’ll have a replay…..

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Gemini for Real

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Come a little closer
Flicker in flight
We’ll have about an inch s space
But im here i can breath in
What you breathe out

Let me know if im doing this right
Let me know if my grips too tight
Let me know if i can stay all of my life
Let me know if dreams can come true
Let me know if this ones for you

Cause i see it
And i feel it
Right here
And i feel you right here

The vacuous night
Steps aside to give meaning
To gemini’s dreaming
The moon on it’s back
And the seemingly
Veiled room’s lit
By the same star

And i feel it right here
And i feel you right here



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WTF…

September 15, 2005


i’m scared, so scared to even think of the possibilities. J and her are meeting up today to buy medicine and to get some stuff. i’m so scared of the factr that they’ll be seeing each other again. i know it’s really inevitable given the circumstances but shit! i’m so damn worried, not worried that they might do something foolish, i’m already over that phase, i’m just scared that they might end up realizing that there’s still love in their veins and they might cinsider getting back together. and i’m afraid i could not handle that. no, not this time, not anymore. i’m here at home, taking care of our little angel and waiting for his text that he’s already home and that he may stil want to see me after all. i can’t stop myself from thinking. i don’t wanna think about them. i don’t want to think about them being together right this moment, laughing and just enjoying being together. i can’t, i don’t want to! but this leads me nowhere cause i still am thinking and i am thinking real hard. so what will i do? how can i take my mind off them? yumi’s mumbling again (as usual incomprehensible) but atleast she’s happy with what she’s doing. FINE and CONTENTED.

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16th Monthsary….

September 12, 2005



today is our 16th monthsary. too bad we won’t be celebrating it together.
come to think of it, it has been so long since that day when we became “us”.
so much has happened in the past year and 4 months that we’ve been together.
i don’t regret anything i did or anything that i will end up doing
because i love you that much. i know it would still be along tough road ahead
given our situation right now. so we’ll just wait until
we could make all of our dreams come true..
i know it would be hard and it would take so much effort
on yours and my part to make it all work out but we will work it out.
i know it. i know i’ve already met my dream guy,
my prince charmig, my knight in shining armor, in short
“THE LOVE OF MY LIFE”.
sounds cheesy i know but nothing ever really mattered to me until now.
or if i may say the until the day i met Him. there would always be this one day
in my life that i would treasure forever and
that is the day i met Him.
i don’t like to be a hipocrite in saying that the relationship was that smooth sailing
but inspite or despite all the humps, bumps and waves along the way,
we still made it this far. and just a few more bumps won’t hurt anymore
cuz we’ve been through the worst.
i’m looking forward to spending the rest of my days with you Daddy!!!!!
Happy 16th Monthsary. Here’s a toast to spending forever with you.

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Gemini

September 10, 2005

“let me know if dreams can come true
let me know if this one’s yours too.”

well, in life you’ll always meet that one person whom you would want to share your life with. in my case i met Him already (Lucky Me huh?!). then one by one you’ll build your dreams together and slowly, one by one you both would make those dreams come true. and finally, dreams would no longer be dreams and happy endings would not be just in fairy tales anymore.

Happy endings would be a reality that you and i will soon share pare!!!!!< 

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Waiting….

September 8, 2005


hhmmmmm.what will i do now? have nothing else to do now.. i have to wait for J for about an hour or two until he reaches the city.hhmmmm..i’m here stuck in an internet cafe, good thing i ate before i left the house or else he may find a dead girl here.hehehe..well, so much for trying to upload a new blog.i wonder where all my friends are..at this point i need someone to talk to real bad or i’ll end up spoiling saliva and having hallitosis here (don’t know if i spelled the  word correctly.forgive my spelling).i’m counting the minutes slowly ticking away..it’s not my fault..e sha nga tong natatagalan pa kung 3 magkikita tpos all at once biglang sumakit ung tyan nya..so i’m here in some fucked up internet cafe pouring my heart out in a pc that may even be considered overused (that’s an understatement.) it’s like u don’t even know if the mouse still works…what else.forgive my entry.i’m just pouring out everything that comes into mind.so i left the house early coz i’m fearing that J might be too early in the venue but guess what…hmmm, i’m two hours early because we had to change the sched.and none of my friends are online right now so there’s really no one there to talk to except this darn pc and myself.it’s only 313 according to this thing’s clock and i’m guessing he’ll be here at around 430 or 5 the earliest.will update tomorrow on what time he finally made it ok..that is if i still make it to the office at this rate.another thing, we won’t be getting our retention bonuses this coming 22nd..fuck ‘em all.as of what i heard it would be given on the 22nd of october..how fucked up could that be..i’m using the F word more often now..yeah well, what the heck! wlang basagan ng trip!i’m tired of typing…later..

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Cheerping Cardinals still the best..

i’ve just watched the nestle non stop cheerdance competition at channel 23 yesterday and Mapua didn’t even placed. last year they were the cheerdance champions..well, i didn’t get to watch them perform this year because nakatambay ako and J just reminded me of the competition and when i finally got home it was JRU already performing on the floor. iwas 3 schools late for mapua’s performance..let’s just say that i am one of mapua cheers’ biggest fans!!! although we didn’t win this time, MAPUA cheerleading team would always be the best cheerleaders for me!!!!!! loveu all and miss hanging out with you..


* to mel,da,kuya giles(dunno if he’s still here),gil, jm, joseph, cheng and those whom i forgot to mention, u still are the best khit ano mngyari..dito lang kmi ni lai..ur #1 fans!!!! hahaha!!!!

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HaPpY AtLaSt!!!!!!


just got back from my rest day and i’m hell of a lot better today than the week before.i’m not in my gloomy mood anymore and i’m really happy about that.we’ve just been to our “tambayan” (hmmm, only J and I know where) hehehe..and it was great..everything was great, even the safety rubber endorsed by mtv was great (it was orange by the way) hihihihi…that rubber was really hard to fingd..we can’t seem to find it anywhere but finally one rainy night in makati, there it was..in the counter of a 7eleven hidden by the buildings and all..and then we ate and i mean we ate a whole lot!!!! extra rice and all.hehehe.and then time to burn those extra rice and get to work..hehehe..and may i just say that the best feeling would be the make up after the break up..heard a thousand times but not in a million words could one describe how good it really feels..hehehe

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not so sure

September 5, 2005


?like the title, im not so sure why i wrote another entry when in fact i already have like 3 entries just for today only..(bkit ba?! wlang basagan ng trip!!!!) so here we go again.i’m tired of arguing.(ikaw ba nman isang linggo straight inaaway pag di ka ba nman npagod ewan ko na lang!) so i just heard my officemate josh say that this is a lousy day!!!! hell yeah! you’re absolutely right about that!!! or for me i should say a damn lousy week!!!!(and that’s even an understatement) so, things are slowly going back to normal as of right now…well, i just wish this time its for real, not like the other days that its just a series of f—ed  up events rolled in sugar coating..i guess what i really miss is smiling big!!!! as in like the tips of my lips would touch my ears already.so i guess this leads to another pointless entry huh?!!!! oh well time for me to end this crap…and as promised on my first entry, i’ll be giving juicier blogs if this all goes well today…c yah next!!

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late


late again…hahah..i took my break 45mins late because i got so caught up with learning html..(hahaha!!!) so i’m having fun with this blog.nice i get to forget my troubles for a while..later it’s time to go back to the real world again so i guess time for my sulking mood again..and i hate it!!!

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Not Again????????

shit!!! why does this always have to happen…taena nman oh..we always argue about the littlest things.kgabi we lang we fought over me staying at my cousin’s house til 10pm..eh fota nman!!!! i didn’t do anything wrong..sbi nya i should have slept nung time na yun instead daw tambay pa ko…wtf! eh, ngayon inaway nya ko what does he expect me to do? sleep it all out? ano ba naman..why are these days so difficult.always lots of problems but no answers..hayyy..and nakakainis the simplest of things leave us arguing! i wish this hell week would end soon..while im still sane. or if this continues, just make me numb so that i’ll feel no pain.

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rainy days

September 4, 2005

so here i go on my new blog..just testing..hehehe..well its almost Christmas (huwwwaaaattt???!!!) wla lang just felt like saying it. it’s september so just 3 months to go before Christmas.. this blog is so nonsense ha. well, i’ll give juicier blogs later but for now i’m just testing the air.


so, just now i confim that the early morning wasn’t bad.it was the night that got me into this sulking mood now. hmmmm, let me think how it all started… hmmmm, last night i was in my cousin’s house raking my mind off on how to solve my usual problem and then i went home and texted Him and there it all started. little things led to big things (as usual!?!!)..and so it happened, the sun hid behind the clouds again, the rainbow dissolved in the rain, the silver lining was nowhere to be found. ano ba nman to…langya lagi na lang…i wish i can finally say i’m tired and i don’t want it anymore, but i can’t..hmmm.so i’d just have to wait as this new day unfolds and see if i could get a glimpse of the sun? or forever drown in the rain…til then so here i go on my new blog..just testing..hehehe..well its almost Christmas (huwwwaaaattt???!!!) wla lang just felt like saying it. it’s september so just 3 months to go before Christmas.. this blog is so nonsense ha. well, i’ll give juicier blogs later but for now i’m just testing the air.

aug 8. 2005 yours and mine…hmmmm..how do i start..

it all started the rainy month of may. i was on my same old routine of reporting for my ojt and staying up all night when suddenly out of nowhere you said hi. i didn’t mind you back then but you said hi again so i said hi back…it all started there.you know how everyone says that it all started when you said hello, on our part it was hi!!! hahaha..and then it all began..the rollercoaster of feelings that i never even thought existed hit me all at once. since that day you became my friend, my bestfriend, my lover, my life. funny how we started just talking of songs and ended up talking of our future together. when we met for the first time you were even late for an hour..imagine, me, having no sleep yet because of my graveyard shift waiting under the roof of annaleens in alabang (i don’t even know the spelling of the damn store..hehehe). so, there…u were an hour late.but you made up for the lost time anyways..we were together til morning..i didn’t think then that that time would be the simplest of what we’re gonna go through…it was tough really but i held on..why, well because i loved you that much..i held on so tight that no one could ever take you away from me.and in fairness to you, you held on to me too.well, i guess now after a year and 3 months of endless ramblings, love and friendship, what used to be yours and mine became ours.what was once you and me became us.iloveyou and even if i have to go through the same pain, humiliation, sacrifices and fears all over again, i would if in the end i’ll still have you..iloveuPARE.. (more…)

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