decide..DECIDE..DeCiDe…

minsan may mga desisyon sa buhay na kahit masakit ay kailangan mong gawin dahil alam mong yun yung tama..kaya lang minsan talagang hindi mo kaya. mahal ko siya, mahal nya ko, pro may isa pang nagmamahal sa kanya na nangangailangan sa kanya ngayon..mahirap diba?! masakit pag di mo alam kung saan ka lulugar, dun sa kung saan magiging masaya ka, o dun sa alam mong tama. minsan ko nang naranasan mag isa. ” alone in the most crucial time of my life.” alone when  i was fighting between the thin lines of life and death..mag isa, wala siya. noon, kahit gaano ko gustuhin wala akong choice but to get through it alone…so now, ang line ng thinking ko, why shouldn’t she suffer the same fate? why should she be any different? why should she be special?

pero still, my conscience is bothering me. what’s the right thing to do? maybe, hindi ko dapat tinatanong yun kasi i know the answer damn well…pero is it fair? again, i would know the answer to that. life’s unfair, life’s godeym hard but decisions have to be made and the consequences of my decisions i have to bear alone… well, all my life i made lots of wrong choices and real bad decisions, let’s just hope this time, this one time i would make the right one..