Gemini for Real

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Come a little closer
Flicker in flight
We’ll have about an inch s space
But im here i can breath in
What you breathe out

Let me know if im doing this right
Let me know if my grips too tight
Let me know if i can stay all of my life
Let me know if dreams can come true
Let me know if this ones for you

Cause i see it
And i feel it
Right here
And i feel you right here

The vacuous night
Steps aside to give meaning
To gemini’s dreaming
The moon on it’s back
And the seemingly
Veiled room’s lit
By the same star

And i feel it right here
And i feel you right here

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WTF…

September 15, 2005

i’m scared, so scared to even think of the possibilities. J and her are meeting up today to buy medicine and to get some stuff. i’m so scared of the factr that they’ll be seeing each other again. i know it’s really inevitable given the circumstances but shit! i’m so damn worried, not worried that they might do something foolish, i’m already over that phase, i’m just scared that they might end up realizing that there’s still love in their veins and they might cinsider getting back together. and i’m afraid i could not handle that. no, not this time, not anymore. i’m here at home, taking care of our little angel and waiting for his text that he’s already home and that he may stil want to see me after all. i can’t stop myself from thinking. i don’t wanna think about them. i don’t want to think about them being together right this moment, laughing and just enjoying being together. i can’t, i don’t want to! but this leads me nowhere cause i still am thinking and i am thinking real hard. so what will i do? how can i take my mind off them? yumi’s mumbling again (as usual incomprehensible) but atleast she’s happy with what she’s doing. FINE and CONTENTED.

16th Monthsary….

September 12, 2005

today is our 16th monthsary. too bad we won’t be celebrating it together.
come to think of it, it has been so long since that day when we became “us”.
so much has happened in the past year and 4 months that we’ve been together.
i don’t regret anything i did or anything that i will end up doing
because i love you that much. i know it would still be along tough road ahead
given our situation right now. so we’ll just wait until
we could make all of our dreams come true..
i know it would be hard and it would take so much effort
on yours and my part to make it all work out but we will work it out.
i know it. i know i’ve already met my dream guy,
my prince charmig, my knight in shining armor, in short
“THE LOVE OF MY LIFE”.
sounds cheesy i know but nothing ever really mattered to me until now.
or if i may say the until the day i met Him. there would always be this one day
in my life that i would treasure forever and
that is the day i met Him.
i don’t like to be a hipocrite in saying that the relationship was that smooth sailing
but inspite or despite all the humps, bumps and waves along the way,
we still made it this far. and just a few more bumps won’t hurt anymore
cuz we’ve been through the worst.
i’m looking forward to spending the rest of my days with you Daddy!!!!!
Happy 16th Monthsary. Here’s a toast to spending forever with you.

Gemini

September 10, 2005

“let me know if dreams can come true
let me know if this one’s yours too.”

well, in life you’ll always meet that one person whom you would want to share your life with. in my case i met Him already (Lucky Me huh?!). then one by one you’ll build your dreams together and slowly, one by one you both would make those dreams come true. and finally, dreams would no longer be dreams and happy endings would not be just in fairy tales anymore.

Happy endings would be a reality that you and i will soon share pare!!!!!< 

Waiting….

September 8, 2005

hhmmmmm.what will i do now? have nothing else to do now.. i have to wait for J for about an hour or two until he reaches the city.hhmmmm..i’m here stuck in an internet cafe, good thing i ate before i left the house or else he may find a dead girl here.hehehe..well, so much for trying to upload a new blog.i wonder where all my friends are..at this point i need someone to talk to real bad or i’ll end up spoiling saliva and having hallitosis here (don’t know if i spelled the  word correctly.forgive my spelling).i’m counting the minutes slowly ticking away..it’s not my fault..e sha nga tong natatagalan pa kung 3 magkikita tpos all at once biglang sumakit ung tyan nya..so i’m here in some fucked up internet cafe pouring my heart out in a pc that may even be considered overused (that’s an understatement.) it’s like u don’t even know if the mouse still works…what else.forgive my entry.i’m just pouring out everything that comes into mind.so i left the house early coz i’m fearing that J might be too early in the venue but guess what…hmmm, i’m two hours early because we had to change the sched.and none of my friends are online right now so there’s really no one there to talk to except this darn pc and myself.it’s only 313 according to this thing’s clock and i’m guessing he’ll be here at around 430 or 5 the earliest.will update tomorrow on what time he finally made it ok..that is if i still make it to the office at this rate.another thing, we won’t be getting our retention bonuses this coming 22nd..fuck ‘em all.as of what i heard it would be given on the 22nd of october..how fucked up could that be..i’m using the F word more often now..yeah well, what the heck! wlang basagan ng trip!i’m tired of typing…later..

Cheerping Cardinals still the best..

i’ve just watched the nestle non stop cheerdance competition at channel 23 yesterday and Mapua didn’t even placed. last year they were the cheerdance champions..well, i didn’t get to watch them perform this year because nakatambay ako and J just reminded me of the competition and when i finally got home it was JRU already performing on the floor. iwas 3 schools late for mapua’s performance..let’s just say that i am one of mapua cheers’ biggest fans!!! although we didn’t win this time, MAPUA cheerleading team would always be the best cheerleaders for me!!!!!! loveu all and miss hanging out with you..

* to mel,da,kuya giles(dunno if he’s still here),gil, jm, joseph, cheng and those whom i forgot to mention, u still are the best khit ano mngyari..dito lang kmi ni lai..ur #1 fans!!!! hahaha!!!!

HaPpY AtLaSt!!!!!!

just got back from my rest day and i’m hell of a lot better today than the week before.i’m not in my gloomy mood anymore and i’m really happy about that.we’ve just been to our “tambayan” (hmmm, only J and I know where) hehehe..and it was great..everything was great, even the safety rubber endorsed by mtv was great (it was orange by the way) hihihihi…that rubber was really hard to fingd..we can’t seem to find it anywhere but finally one rainy night in makati, there it was..in the counter of a 7eleven hidden by the buildings and all..and then we ate and i mean we ate a whole lot!!!! extra rice and all.hehehe.and then time to burn those extra rice and get to work..hehehe..and may i just say that the best feeling would be the make up after the break up..heard a thousand times but not in a million words could one describe how good it really feels..hehehe

not so sure

September 5, 2005

?like the title, im not so sure why i wrote another entry when in fact i already have like 3 entries just for today only..(bkit ba?! wlang basagan ng trip!!!!) so here we go again.i’m tired of arguing.(ikaw ba nman isang linggo straight inaaway pag di ka ba nman npagod ewan ko na lang!) so i just heard my officemate josh say that this is a lousy day!!!! hell yeah! you’re absolutely right about that!!! or for me i should say a damn lousy week!!!!(and that’s even an understatement) so, things are slowly going back to normal as of right now…well, i just wish this time its for real, not like the other days that its just a series of f—ed  up events rolled in sugar coating..i guess what i really miss is smiling big!!!! as in like the tips of my lips would touch my ears already.so i guess this leads to another pointless entry huh?!!!! oh well time for me to end this crap…and as promised on my first entry, i’ll be giving juicier blogs if this all goes well today…c yah next!!

late

late again…hahah..i took my break 45mins late because i got so caught up with learning html..(hahaha!!!) so i’m having fun with this blog.nice i get to forget my troubles for a while..later it’s time to go back to the real world again so i guess time for my sulking mood again..and i hate it!!!

Not Again????????

shit!!! why does this always have to happen…taena nman oh..we always argue about the littlest things.kgabi we lang we fought over me staying at my cousin’s house til 10pm..eh fota nman!!!! i didn’t do anything wrong..sbi nya i should have slept nung time na yun instead daw tambay pa ko…wtf! eh, ngayon inaway nya ko what does he expect me to do? sleep it all out? ano ba naman..why are these days so difficult.always lots of problems but no answers..hayyy..and nakakainis the simplest of things leave us arguing! i wish this hell week would end soon..while im still sane. or if this continues, just make me numb so that i’ll feel no pain.

rainy days

September 4, 2005

so here i go on my new blog..just testing..hehehe..well its almost Christmas (huwwwaaaattt???!!!) wla lang just felt like saying it. it’s september so just 3 months to go before Christmas.. this blog is so nonsense ha. well, i’ll give juicier blogs later but for now i’m just testing the air.

so, just now i confim that the early morning wasn’t bad.it was the night that got me into this sulking mood now. hmmmm, let me think how it all started… hmmmm, last night i was in my cousin’s house raking my mind off on how to solve my usual problem and then i went home and texted Him and there it all started. little things led to big things (as usual!?!!)..and so it happened, the sun hid behind the clouds again, the rainbow dissolved in the rain, the silver lining was nowhere to be found. ano ba nman to…langya lagi na lang…i wish i can finally say i’m tired and i don’t want it anymore, but i can’t..hmmm.so i’d just have to wait as this new day unfolds and see if i could get a glimpse of the sun? or forever drown in the rain…til then so here i go on my new blog..just testing..hehehe..well its almost Christmas (huwwwaaaattt???!!!) wla lang just felt like saying it. it’s september so just 3 months to go before Christmas.. this blog is so nonsense ha. well, i’ll give juicier blogs later but for now i’m just testing the air.

aug 8. 2005 yours and mine…hmmmm..how do i start..

it all started the rainy month of may. i was on my same old routine of reporting for my ojt and staying up all night when suddenly out of nowhere you said hi. i didn’t mind you back then but you said hi again so i said hi back…it all started there.you know how everyone says that it all started when you said hello, on our part it was hi!!! hahaha..and then it all began..the rollercoaster of feelings that i never even thought existed hit me all at once. since that day you became my friend, my bestfriend, my lover, my life. funny how we started just talking of songs and ended up talking of our future together. when we met for the first time you were even late for an hour..imagine, me, having no sleep yet because of my graveyard shift waiting under the roof of annaleens in alabang (i don’t even know the spelling of the damn store..hehehe). so, there…u were an hour late.but you made up for the lost time anyways..we were together til morning..i didn’t think then that that time would be the simplest of what we’re gonna go through…it was tough really but i held on..why, well because i loved you that much..i held on so tight that no one could ever take you away from me.and in fairness to you, you held on to me too.well, i guess now after a year and 3 months of endless ramblings, love and friendship, what used to be yours and mine became ours.what was once you and me became us.iloveyou and even if i have to go through the same pain, humiliation, sacrifices and fears all over again, i would if in the end i’ll still have you..iloveuPARE.. (more…)